Lindsay Lohan had a "total death wish", says her former bodyguard - complete with coke binges, wrist cutting, sex with girls. She even fondled Mariah Carey!

The troubled actress, who is currently being treated for alcoholism and drug
abuse in Malibu's Promises rehab center, is "out of control" and has
reportedly tried to commit suicide.

Lindsay's ex-security guard Lee Weaver, who claims he quit because she was
too dangerous to work for, revealed to the News of the World newspaper:

"I have looked after some of the wildest stars in Hollywood but have never seen
anyone as out of control as Lindsay. She had a total death wish and took
more drugs and drank more than anyone I've met.



"I lost count of the times I thought she was overdosing and had to carry her
out of parties. Every morning I'd breathe a sigh of relief she was still
alive.

"One night I looked at her wrists and hands and noticed they had bright red
wounds all over them. She broke down and told me, 'I don't belong on this
planet anymore.' She said she cut herself because she didn't think life was
worth living."

Weaver - who has previously worked for Brad Pitt, Pamela Anderson and Robert
Downey Jnr - also claims Lindsay, 20, joined Nicole Richie for cocaine
binges.



He said: "One night Lindsay and Nicole laid a mirror taken from the bedroom
and on a coffee table and emptied a mountain of coke onto it. They went at
the stuff with straws hoovering it all up. I tried to tell Lindsay to stop.
After ten hours, I had to carry her to the car."

Weaver also claims Lindsay experimented with lesbian sex, using women for
"thrills".

He added: "I lost count of the women she took back to her hotel room from
clubs. She used girls for thrills. I even saw her try to grope Mariah Carey's butt and boobs one night.

"At the start she seemed such a fun-loving angelic girl, but under the
influence of drugs she was psychotic."

Thanks a Lot, Weaver. You couldn’t have just looked the other way could you?

she has serious problems.  I think it may go much deeper than drugs and alcohol. She clearly hates herself and her own fucking mother has made it clear lindsay is merely her cash cow. Her dad’s a loser. No mater how much money or pampering she gets, she is still sick inside and I hope she gets help and turns around and kicks ass and kicks her parents to the curb already.
She showed promise as an actress. Not a singer. But an actress ands she could be really pretty if she would only have taken care of herself.

none of this surprises me at all.  The cutting was obvious everytime she had her wrists bandaged. It’s all sad but at the same time I think she could help herself if she wanted to.  She needs to leave the spotlight for a while but she refuses so to me she is a loser.

She deserves prayers and i dont blame him for breaking his loyalty to her…She is really in trouble and needs to change. Maybe him speaking out will help her…who knows. Whatever the case may be, we can laugh and joke daily about her wild antics BUT in all seriousness, she needs help and prayers and as much support as possible from her fans since her Family is probably part of the issue.

this guy might be a dick for blabbing all this info for money b/c linds is too stupid to make her employees sign non-disclosure agreements…but maybe this shitstorm will knock some sense into her dumb ass.

We all had to grow up and make choices in our lives.  Unfortunately, she’s never grown up and has made all the wrong choices while using her fortune to pave the way to all the wrong things.  Having an enabling mother has definitely not helped this kid either.

Seriously, is anyone surprised by this? If that girl doesn’t take rehab seriously, she’ll wind up dead.

I have heard all of this before so this news isn’t surprising

You know what, that bitch can die, I couldn’t care less.
She should just the fuck up and be happy with what she has. If she is still unhappy it’s her problem and nobody cares. Everybody has problems

oh yyyy honey, don’t be so harsh.her problems are pretty severe and probably don’t have much to do with how much money she’s got or how famous she is.please try being a little more tolerant when it comes to such issues even if u hate the person.

Its morbidly funny when talentless c-actors try to emulate James Dean’s live fast and die young attitude.

Geez she got skinny back in that picture, wow. But anyways, i think the support should start with her parents and since dina is focused on reality shows and whatever somebody else need to step up to the plate.

mimimumbi - you’re exactly right. I have often wonder why these body guards enable these young misfits. I mean, there you are - watching someone snot mounds of coke all day, repeatedly have to remove them from bars, and hope every morning that they wake up (alive). H E L L O! I applaud him for speaking out in a way, but admonish him at the same time for enabling this behavior. Yeah! I know - he made a shit load of money ‘guarding’ Linds, but still.

It was always very clear to us all that she had serious issues. In all reality this girl has no one to turn to. Her friends aren’t really her friends, they use her. Her mom is just there to cash in on her fame either by money or by trying to get her stupid ass “realty show”. Her dad i think SOMEWHAT whats to help but she won’t let him in her life, & all he does is talk to the media which is by far the worst way. I really do hope she finds the RIGHT people in rehab that truly would help her get better. In my opinion they are her only hope. Nobody else in her life seem to care.

good heavens!  that’s some juicy shit.  plz tell me more, mr. bodygaurd

i feel sorry for her. i truly and honestly do.